It has been an ambition of mine for a long time, to create a blog. I have wanted to share my angel with you. You may not know her yet, so I will start by telling you, she has Autism. What I hope to accomplish is offering a whole new perspective on Autism. There are many sites about Autism and I often feel, most of what we read is the hard stuff.... This new face, I hope will inspire you. She makes me smile, she makes me cry. She is so amazing. She has more to teach me, then I could ever teach her. That face, that smile, that love is so real and amazing. I finally learned, there really is unconditional love. How did I get so fortunate to experience this? Now, I must pass this on to you.
It's hard to find out that your only daughter, your only child, has a permanent disability. The part that isn't permanent - the "dis"!! She has soooooo much ability. Okay, so she doesn't do what other kids do, I know. And, she is still in diapers, I know. Fine, you are breaking me down here, she has limited receptive and expressive communication too. But, when she looks up at me, when she smiles, when she laughs, I believe there is a heaven in her. I see an entire story, just in her eyes. She doesn't have to talk to give me that. And, if she is still in diapers, it is what it is. I suppose we will have to "get over it". I will look into her eyes and overlook the diaper. When our society begins to do this with me, we will all gain from it.
I want to tell the world how she had 14 kids that WANTED to come to her birthday party. Gotta love all of them for wanting to be a part. What's the big deal? You will see.
I remember the day we received Alyssa's diagnosis. I was trapped, I cried for 5 days straight, to no avail. Eventually, I had to decide "what are you gonna do about it". I want to celebrate her!!
And, each of us has a choice... what we are gonna do with it? Does it still make me sad? Yes. Does it still make me mad? Sure. Do I pity myself? Not anymore. Do I cry? Absolutely!! Do I get frustrated? Well, you probably know the answer to that... LOL By the way, I am very, very human! Ha!
To all of you who join our journey, please know, it may not be perfect.