I love the show “Extreme Makeover; Home Edition”. Great show! I love how a community comes together to make a difference. I also love the show “What would you do?” For me, I love seeing people do what’s right. “The Biggest Loser” is inspiring, when you can see those people changing their lives significantly, for the better. Soon, there will be a new show out called “Secret Millionaire”. Looks like another winner! The common thread, I love to watch good happen.
Someone dear to me has always said, “a person can’t know what it’s like to feel good, unless they have experienced what bad feels like”. I believe this is true. I believe you will never truly know what good is, how it feels and appreciate it, without having a deep and intimate understanding of bad or hard. I also believe, we cannot see, until our blindness is unmasked by all the things we allow to get in the way of our vision.
Honestly, I am tired of hard. I don’t understand it. I am hopeful and wish for lighter days. It’s not so much, I am whining over spilled milk; I am run down from 7 years of challenge. See, this is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with in my life, from the day I had Alyssa and her lung collapsed, to this current day, where she has frustrations linked to her difficulty with expressing her wants and needs. And, there is so much in between the “then and now”. How did 7 years come and go so quickly, when some days felt so long?
Then, I realize, I need to find the good in all situations, it’s my saving grace. I hold each and every accomplishment, my Alyssa makes, close to my heart. It’s what keeps my heart beating. There really is no sense in allowing myself to get down over stuff that isn’t really “that important” anyhow. Reality check, I see the news. I can make a list of things to appreciate after watching just 10 minutes of CNN (or 1 minute of Albuquerque news - haha).
I am exactly the person who has received life’s lessons in balance; the balance of good and bad; sight and blindness; sadness and happiness; rich and poor, etc. I have been blessed, plain and simple, with BOTH understandings. I would prefer to have all the better halves of those life lessons, but for some reason, it doesn’t work that way.
I do have to say, Alyssa spoils me with love and affection; it makes me feel rich in other ways. I am thankful for what I have and feel I am fortunate to not have it harder. At the end of the day, all my stress, anxiety, tiredness, sadness and hardship will turn into something good, if I let it.
Thank you for reading. Have a great day! Angie